hosting for the first time

31st July - Morning 

It's tiring morning. It's not because of fasting month or packed work. but I kinda have lack of sleep as I host a guest for the first time in my life :o I just can't imagine, I've done quite alot this year.. It's a guest from couchsurfing.org , he travelled to Brunei until tomorrow. 

Luckily I'm quite flexible and easily mingle with any stranger, so hosting him is 'nothing' to me. He's pakistani guy, studying in Singapore, taking major in Mechanical Engineering & second major in Business. Had travelled to over 20 different countries within 4 years. Age 23 and having 3 sisters. Wow.. Quite interesting background. On last Monday, we met for the first time and I fetched him in his hostel & we went to the mall. Yesterday we enjoyed local cuisine for iftar and Pacific Rim movie together (with my lilsis as well) . He's asking what's my plan for him today. I have told him that I never work with plan, so better work in spontaneously. 

We shared views of life, I showed him the beauty of my country, youth activities in leisure time & culture as well. I can read his mind & actions sometimes, which surprised him anyway. It's good starting with nice & polite surfer from cs... I'm glad to choose to meet him & always trust my right intuition. 

stalker of the year ~

Kadang2 cali jua bcouple lain bangsa ne… tapi important thing is TRUST & LOYAL. I trust him just like he trust me, I’m loyal so as him. Sama yg aku learned from the past, suka tu biar sadang2… yang teluka tu krg sendiri jua, bukan urang lain. Tapi yg siuknya Sam ne liur melayu bleh jua, bagi saja satay, nasi goreng ka, nasi ayam ka… d padatnya saja dlm parutnya. makanan india? Hahhh abis tia atinya, nada yakn bshare sma aku. Confirm aku dilupakan! Yatah gi malas tu…

 penah sekali kami mkn d Jaya Restoran di Penang, managernya mcm treat kami special buat aku suspicious sendiri plg. Minuman kami dbagi nya satu galas saja, straw dua. Ehhh! Mana jua cukup utk aku tu… Haissh >.< ujung2 nya ku suruh c Sam order g satu, yang atu ku abiskan, minumannya aku abiskan jua… Sapa suruh ya abiskan ayam tandoor ku! Udahlah Cadbury ku ya abiskan jua. Ya mmbagi aku,skali ya minta jua balik. Buruk siku banar >.< D mana keadailan dalam dunia ne?? yg bisainya, ya nda bawa ke restoran nda halal, taunya udah tu mun aku tarus2 diam melintas foodstall yg ada lambang Carlsberg, confirmed la nda halal. Itik, katak begantung, kn tjeluak ku meliat :s last2 ditarik nya aku ke restoran india yg jauhnya 2 km kali…atu banar, kami jln kaki rasaku mcm 20 km saja….aku wa biasa drebeng sini..mana jua ku tau d Penang mesti jln kaki - -‘ kalau awl2 ku tau, setiap hari ku buat marathon dapan masjid SOAS dibandar aahh… 

Haishh! Nda pa la,dpt jua aku slim down… supaya muat baju raya ku taun lapas.. lol! Interesting part is, he’s good cook. Walaupun aku nda penah rasa masakannya, caranya esplain tu mcm expert. Yatah konsonen yg ku cari <3 yatah buat sayangku mendalam ne. pyh mencari lelaki yg pandai masak, yg ready kn train newbie mcm aku tah lagi… tapi usulnya ya mcm expect to have gf yg pandai masak…hmm masakkn ya omelette kali bisai, in return aku merasa pasta yg ya buat! Hahaha.. witty~

Random stranger penah cakap arhku, buat baik berpada-pada… Jgn jua luan baik arah urg nda tantu sbb andang manusia ne kdg2 suka ngambil kesempatan. Mu nada urg tarus2 urg bbaik, bektah bhati2… mana tau ujung2nya, ‘brapa nmbr tepun you ah..?’ ahaxx style lama tu bui… >.<  eh apahal aku tarus2 ceta psl random stranger ne! **iklan**

Yo basyir! Sadang2 stalk aku keh! Mun jurnal ani pn ko baca, maka sesungguhnya kau tah the best stalker of the year. Siuk ka stalking ani?? Tell me!!  (emo! Calming down) nasib baik ku posa, sesungguhnya hamba sedang berpuasa….. #@%$%^^^%#& By the way, bila g shabu-shabu?? Haha mcm sibanar, aku mliat atap shabu2 pun ingat-ingat lupa udah dmana. D Bandar ka temburong tu? Mustahil d kb…ekeke.. hmm mun bawa ko mkn slalu pun, bukan ko mkn byk - -‘ tekana lunch time, time lapar, baru teabis...mun nda, aku sorang kali abiskn? Pedah tu aaa bawa ko utk display doll, mengipas aku makan. Bah bila celebrate farewell mu??? 

One Direction - Best Song Ever

Lenka - Everything At Once

19^th July

Hey baby! U have done a good job! ;D I saw the menu stuff that you ‘designed’ the whole night. It’s worth ok. I know somehow you need to focus to get it done so I minimize my text to you coz I’m sure you will come back to me once you’ve done, tho it’s just a simple ‘good night’ J keep up the good work. I know you are best in this. We always enjoy what we are passionate in. For me, I can’t really find any now except writing …. Not long ago, I was told to stop writing! Maybe this reader was bored or something. That time, I lost my inspiration and taking long break… I just feel like unappreciated and tried to switch to different activity like go for jogging or something but I kept what I observed inside me….. It’s like killing me… so I said to myself, that whoever inspires me again to write more, that person would be more than special to me. Even tho I need to polish my writing, I just speak whatever inside my little brain which I couldn’t keep that long (it has expiry date ok just like my stolen Cadburys which digested in your stomach) unless i remember way to log into my blog which I always forget:s

Do you know where is my favourite place in shopping complex?? Bookstore! I could spend up to 1-2 hours in bookstore, but end up buying nothing… hahaha… It’s like totally heaven to me. My confused brain wanna buy all of them but my little heart always safe me! Another alternative is e-book but I’d prefer the REAL book which I can have feeling of flipping the page, smile while reading (just like you are now reading my email) or it’d best with some cartoon or design inside it. Haha :D

It’s chilly here, but I guess the temperature is 20-25 , I even wore sweater last night, but it could be summer for you. Lol… best weather for me anyway coz usually its more than 30 degrees.

Mom would lecture more if she found out I stayed late. Or she simply shows little caring. Whenever she found I get sick, she always says that her worries so much and makes her feels like keeping me back inside her womb if possible just to cure me! I was thinking how possible is that?? How could I be cured inside my mom’s tummy? Yes it could be cozy but… No way! I would lose my freedom. I’d just consumed what my mom’s eating! Worst thing is, I can’t talk to anyone, I can’t write or I can’t even see my dearest Samual Peter Pan anymore :’( hahaha… I somehow think that I inherit her nonsense thinking! :D

Yayy! I’d enjoy my journey home later on. Coz I don’t have to cook for early breakfast tomorrow! It’s time to taste mom’s cook…. I could say, I am the princess at home, the food is basically ready on the table with Milo prepared for me:D I didn’t get that special treatment when I was working in my hometown before… we are trained to prepare dish for parents as to respect them. Maybe because I just home in weekend so mom kinda ‘pamper’ me and I enjoy a lot. Haha… but I cooked and prepare food for them too ok, I’m not spoiled brat anyway. But I think I know the reason, Due to some losses before… ever since we lost our grandparents and cousin who REALLY closed to me, she treats me so good. She might afraid she would lose me too one day & regret forever if she doesn’t treat me well just like happened to my aunt who regret til now.. I just don’t mind if she cares less as I am used to it before. I just don’t want any of my siblings feel bias and unfair which they do. I have nothing to be jealous of… I just want to improve my relation with siblings and spend more time with parents while I’m around, in return, I just want them to stop being judgmental. That’s all… I miss that habit which we respect our parents, on the dining table where we have been trained to wait for parents before having meal. We won’t eat first until the parents or elder one sit together, which I don’t find here in my city home. These roommates and even my cousin, they just simply eat without waiting. Hmm …

It’s morning glory ~ shower time! Finished my writing by 630 am today… :P enjoy your time, get more rest ok. You have to work hard from now onwards. Honeymoon time is over, time to work J so thankful to meet u ^o^Shukriya (thank you) I will be around whenever u need me.

From your flower girl,

Hunny Bunny ~ <3 <3 <3

12th July ~

12^TH JULY

It’s been awhile I haven’t update my blog. It’s just that, I wanna stop talking about myself. Just for once! Psychologically, someone who likes to talk about themselves are proud of their life, achievement so on. Whereas someone who talks about memories will always stuck in their past.  

If I were to talk about myself, I would rather reflect it in song. If I were to talk about the memories, I’d rather feel it in the music I play.. someone like me is the one who always keep to myself, hide it behind my smiles & cover it with my confidence.

Sam… I have warned you earlier, now you’ve fallen for me. Correction! We both in love. Love, is unexplanation feelings which could only be felt by the love victim. We just can’t resist to update each other everyday.

 But one thing I’ve learned that, we are not necessary have deep feeling and always be moderate. Deep feelings will turn us to be more obsessed, to hope more, to dominate more, to get more insecure, to jealous more & eventually hurt more! Therefore, by giving moderately, receiving moderately…it can turn us to be more practical & stand on reality. I believe that every achievement in love or career or live is by learning from failure, not from success. I do believe that getting wrong person is one step ahead to the right one J Regardless what your view is, as you might not think that the wrong person is ‘wrong’ because they’re partly right or because they have good reason to leave/ back off. That view of yours I shall respect & sounds logic.

Sam.. I miss talking to you because you always give unexpected and reasonable answer to my silly & childish question. You are just like my missing brain. You’re left handed and I’m right-handed. You’re big and I’m small. You cook well and I bake well. I sing when you play base. I write when you read. I’m morning person when you’re evening person. I’m well-disciplined when you’re not! :p You’re master in science but I’m freak in art. You love coffee whereas I always prefer tea. When you’re talking, I prefer listening J You’re always be thief who steals my Cadburys & I’d be the police who punish you with my flying kiss! In short, can’t you see we complete each other’s life here? 

That’s why I never demand more… Coz it’s always be enough for me to have you who accept me for who I am… Who just simply declare me as your special girlfriend infront of your friends. It’s sense of appreciation to me… most importantly.. you’re as freak as me… :D:D:D I’m so glad to meet someone like you.