Ya Hanana-(acapella version) By Jaswan Abdullah

Dear.. thanks for coming over to visit me.. your 2 weeks stay would be my unforgettable memories this year.. luv you !

26th August 2013

26^th August 2013

Hanged out with Indonesian CS-er named by Adhi Pratna, former teacher in Indonesia but working under civil service since a year ago. Came over with his female colleague – Sheny Diah Puspita. We had good and sweet time. Dinner in Mangrove Resort & had random talks. Somehow he laughed a lot on my spontaneous answers. He’s so adorable and warm hearted guy.  The typical comment from the tourists – what? No way.. you don’t look like 26! - -‘ fine.. I could take it as compliment. 

They suggested me to put Indonesia in my wish list, any part except Jakarta. We had random talks about floods, history, culture, language, music etc… Unfortunately, we just hanged out for once and I didn’t have time to meet them on the following day.

6th August 2013

6^th August 2013

Another CS-er came over to Brunei for short visit. Michelle Jane, New Zealand girl aged 33-year old happy-go-lucky teacher who doing sports came over hosted by my Sri Lankan friend. We could mix well and agreed to some points of life. Growing up in mess and bad school doesn’t really mean we gonna have spoiled future. It’s all about the step, how far we could take to change / improve our living. She has a sister who owned cattle farm inherited from her late husband which interest me.  Unexpectedly, we had a tour to Empire Hotel which happens to be her stay in next march 2014 for her sport tournament.  Can’t wait to see her again!

Good way to respect each other’s opinion – highlight the point if you agree but stay quiet when you disagree. Some people tend to be reserved, keep quiet and rather observe the situation. Others might simply speak out whatever they dislike and disagree. To some points the conversation will seriously turns hotter. People tend to judge us, simple judge us and always judge us. Just be yourself and stick to your character.

The unforgettable smiles ~ CS Family Part 2

2nd Aug 2013

August 2, 2013, Friday

1:43 am

It’s a great start on Friday~ I just reached my home sweet home after sending my last cs guest to airport upon her request. It’s unforgettable week for me. I couldn’t imagine I have found 4 new friends within 5 days J Muhammad Ahad, Alexandre Borges, Ahamed Rifnas & Myra Brucelo… You are really awesome guys! We should have reunion one day. Couchsurfing really amazing org to reunite us like Caucasian siblings J

Spent my Tuesday to Thursday with Muhammad Ahad, the handsome Pakistani cs. I was kinda touched when he ditched Ahamed just to be around me. Probably he felt so comfortable and he said it’s not good to let the girl to drive the car alone while the bunch of males in separate car, was just an excuse to accompany me driving. Sent him to airport on Thursday morning after watching the sunrise together in Empire Hotel. He loves the sea breeze & nature. He was a caring friend & polite. However, he’s quite selective in food due to some sickness he has to control the consumption of oily stuff with cholesterol as he has to get some medication. My eyes teary when I sent him on NO WAITING parking... we have such a good connection in veryshort time & he loves Brunei so much...

Alexandre Borges is French guy which happened to be Ahad’s roommate in Youth Centre dorm. Ahad introduced me when he first arrived on Wednesday. He was travelling and explored some hills in Kuching, Sarawak before he reached Brunei & travel to Pulau Perhentian in West Malaysia before plan to stay in Indonesia for a month. Interesting travel experiences as he has explored Morroco, Portugal, Spain, Malaysia, Singapore etc. Pretty good looking face with light brown eyes. He has one year off before he get back to work in France by February 2014. His parents staying in Portugal and he’s still learning more to speak English. He joined iftar with us as well, and brought him along to see the new mosque. We enjoyed the night view in Empire Hotel. I didn’t manage to meet him before he departed to KL on Thursday. For him, Brunei is a nice place to relax but kind of hot & humid for him. I didn’t really have chance to read his character because he will answer whenever ask but still flexible to mingle around. He’s one year older than me ( I don’t have any idea how he knew about my age, probably told by Ahad). Eventually we stay in touch in fb & I tagged our memories photos together ~ He never want to burden me alot, just go with the wind and love outdoor activity but lazy to wake up early for sunrise moment.

Ahamed Rifnas is Sri Lankan who works in Brunei since 3 years ago. Eventho he’s 25 but he has matured look with creative mind. Probably because he’s exposing to field and site works, he really know perfect angle to take photo. He’s kind of annoying ever since we met up in Shaliheen Mosque when Ahad invited him to join us along. He has just joined cs in last June 2013. He likes to piss me off and turned me as laugh stock coz everyone thought my spontaneous expressive response toward his jokes as funny. Ahh… I never keep grudge, I’m just being expressive and happy go lucky. Everyone thought differently, as if I get angry & get insulted by his words. I couldn’t join them for midnight tour and dinner after we left Empire Hotel. He felt guilty and kept saying sorry to me. Hahaha… Anyway, he’s kind of conservative and preached me a lot. I appreciate his advice as a brother. We sent Myra together to the airport & had safe journey home.

Myra Brucelo is sweet single lady, who’s so open to me. We talked and shared some stories. Maybe because we are females so we have connection. She works as Liason Officer in Ministry of Youth and Sport in Philippines for over 10 years! Now, she’s coming 36 by end of August. She has 2 sis and 2 bros. She’s has been known as gay lady amongst her friend because she could mingle around the gays and lesbians easily. I never question why she stayed single, but she openly shared that she tried to find one but due to busy working life, she hardly had leisure time for herself. I sent her to the airport this morning & so glad to meet her!

Hope to see them again someday, in some place in the world ! Such a strong bonding.... Guys, I love you so muchh... thanks for being lovely friends !

hosting for the first time

31st July - Morning 

It's tiring morning. It's not because of fasting month or packed work. but I kinda have lack of sleep as I host a guest for the first time in my life :o I just can't imagine, I've done quite alot this year.. It's a guest from couchsurfing.org , he travelled to Brunei until tomorrow. 

Luckily I'm quite flexible and easily mingle with any stranger, so hosting him is 'nothing' to me. He's pakistani guy, studying in Singapore, taking major in Mechanical Engineering & second major in Business. Had travelled to over 20 different countries within 4 years. Age 23 and having 3 sisters. Wow.. Quite interesting background. On last Monday, we met for the first time and I fetched him in his hostel & we went to the mall. Yesterday we enjoyed local cuisine for iftar and Pacific Rim movie together (with my lilsis as well) . He's asking what's my plan for him today. I have told him that I never work with plan, so better work in spontaneously. 

We shared views of life, I showed him the beauty of my country, youth activities in leisure time & culture as well. I can read his mind & actions sometimes, which surprised him anyway. It's good starting with nice & polite surfer from cs... I'm glad to choose to meet him & always trust my right intuition. 

stalker of the year ~

Kadang2 cali jua bcouple lain bangsa ne… tapi important thing is TRUST & LOYAL. I trust him just like he trust me, I’m loyal so as him. Sama yg aku learned from the past, suka tu biar sadang2… yang teluka tu krg sendiri jua, bukan urang lain. Tapi yg siuknya Sam ne liur melayu bleh jua, bagi saja satay, nasi goreng ka, nasi ayam ka… d padatnya saja dlm parutnya. makanan india? Hahhh abis tia atinya, nada yakn bshare sma aku. Confirm aku dilupakan! Yatah gi malas tu…

 penah sekali kami mkn d Jaya Restoran di Penang, managernya mcm treat kami special buat aku suspicious sendiri plg. Minuman kami dbagi nya satu galas saja, straw dua. Ehhh! Mana jua cukup utk aku tu… Haissh >.< ujung2 nya ku suruh c Sam order g satu, yang atu ku abiskan, minumannya aku abiskan jua… Sapa suruh ya abiskan ayam tandoor ku! Udahlah Cadbury ku ya abiskan jua. Ya mmbagi aku,skali ya minta jua balik. Buruk siku banar >.< D mana keadailan dalam dunia ne?? yg bisainya, ya nda bawa ke restoran nda halal, taunya udah tu mun aku tarus2 diam melintas foodstall yg ada lambang Carlsberg, confirmed la nda halal. Itik, katak begantung, kn tjeluak ku meliat :s last2 ditarik nya aku ke restoran india yg jauhnya 2 km kali…atu banar, kami jln kaki rasaku mcm 20 km saja….aku wa biasa drebeng sini..mana jua ku tau d Penang mesti jln kaki - -‘ kalau awl2 ku tau, setiap hari ku buat marathon dapan masjid SOAS dibandar aahh… 

Haishh! Nda pa la,dpt jua aku slim down… supaya muat baju raya ku taun lapas.. lol! Interesting part is, he’s good cook. Walaupun aku nda penah rasa masakannya, caranya esplain tu mcm expert. Yatah konsonen yg ku cari <3 yatah buat sayangku mendalam ne. pyh mencari lelaki yg pandai masak, yg ready kn train newbie mcm aku tah lagi… tapi usulnya ya mcm expect to have gf yg pandai masak…hmm masakkn ya omelette kali bisai, in return aku merasa pasta yg ya buat! Hahaha.. witty~

Random stranger penah cakap arhku, buat baik berpada-pada… Jgn jua luan baik arah urg nda tantu sbb andang manusia ne kdg2 suka ngambil kesempatan. Mu nada urg tarus2 urg bbaik, bektah bhati2… mana tau ujung2nya, ‘brapa nmbr tepun you ah..?’ ahaxx style lama tu bui… >.<  eh apahal aku tarus2 ceta psl random stranger ne! **iklan**

Yo basyir! Sadang2 stalk aku keh! Mun jurnal ani pn ko baca, maka sesungguhnya kau tah the best stalker of the year. Siuk ka stalking ani?? Tell me!!  (emo! Calming down) nasib baik ku posa, sesungguhnya hamba sedang berpuasa….. #@%$%^^^%#& By the way, bila g shabu-shabu?? Haha mcm sibanar, aku mliat atap shabu2 pun ingat-ingat lupa udah dmana. D Bandar ka temburong tu? Mustahil d kb…ekeke.. hmm mun bawa ko mkn slalu pun, bukan ko mkn byk - -‘ tekana lunch time, time lapar, baru teabis...mun nda, aku sorang kali abiskn? Pedah tu aaa bawa ko utk display doll, mengipas aku makan. Bah bila celebrate farewell mu??? 

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Lenka - Everything At Once

19^th July

Hey baby! U have done a good job! ;D I saw the menu stuff that you ‘designed’ the whole night. It’s worth ok. I know somehow you need to focus to get it done so I minimize my text to you coz I’m sure you will come back to me once you’ve done, tho it’s just a simple ‘good night’ J keep up the good work. I know you are best in this. We always enjoy what we are passionate in. For me, I can’t really find any now except writing …. Not long ago, I was told to stop writing! Maybe this reader was bored or something. That time, I lost my inspiration and taking long break… I just feel like unappreciated and tried to switch to different activity like go for jogging or something but I kept what I observed inside me….. It’s like killing me… so I said to myself, that whoever inspires me again to write more, that person would be more than special to me. Even tho I need to polish my writing, I just speak whatever inside my little brain which I couldn’t keep that long (it has expiry date ok just like my stolen Cadburys which digested in your stomach) unless i remember way to log into my blog which I always forget:s

Do you know where is my favourite place in shopping complex?? Bookstore! I could spend up to 1-2 hours in bookstore, but end up buying nothing… hahaha… It’s like totally heaven to me. My confused brain wanna buy all of them but my little heart always safe me! Another alternative is e-book but I’d prefer the REAL book which I can have feeling of flipping the page, smile while reading (just like you are now reading my email) or it’d best with some cartoon or design inside it. Haha :D

It’s chilly here, but I guess the temperature is 20-25 , I even wore sweater last night, but it could be summer for you. Lol… best weather for me anyway coz usually its more than 30 degrees.

Mom would lecture more if she found out I stayed late. Or she simply shows little caring. Whenever she found I get sick, she always says that her worries so much and makes her feels like keeping me back inside her womb if possible just to cure me! I was thinking how possible is that?? How could I be cured inside my mom’s tummy? Yes it could be cozy but… No way! I would lose my freedom. I’d just consumed what my mom’s eating! Worst thing is, I can’t talk to anyone, I can’t write or I can’t even see my dearest Samual Peter Pan anymore :’( hahaha… I somehow think that I inherit her nonsense thinking! :D

Yayy! I’d enjoy my journey home later on. Coz I don’t have to cook for early breakfast tomorrow! It’s time to taste mom’s cook…. I could say, I am the princess at home, the food is basically ready on the table with Milo prepared for me:D I didn’t get that special treatment when I was working in my hometown before… we are trained to prepare dish for parents as to respect them. Maybe because I just home in weekend so mom kinda ‘pamper’ me and I enjoy a lot. Haha… but I cooked and prepare food for them too ok, I’m not spoiled brat anyway. But I think I know the reason, Due to some losses before… ever since we lost our grandparents and cousin who REALLY closed to me, she treats me so good. She might afraid she would lose me too one day & regret forever if she doesn’t treat me well just like happened to my aunt who regret til now.. I just don’t mind if she cares less as I am used to it before. I just don’t want any of my siblings feel bias and unfair which they do. I have nothing to be jealous of… I just want to improve my relation with siblings and spend more time with parents while I’m around, in return, I just want them to stop being judgmental. That’s all… I miss that habit which we respect our parents, on the dining table where we have been trained to wait for parents before having meal. We won’t eat first until the parents or elder one sit together, which I don’t find here in my city home. These roommates and even my cousin, they just simply eat without waiting. Hmm …

It’s morning glory ~ shower time! Finished my writing by 630 am today… :P enjoy your time, get more rest ok. You have to work hard from now onwards. Honeymoon time is over, time to work J so thankful to meet u ^o^Shukriya (thank you) I will be around whenever u need me.

From your flower girl,

Hunny Bunny ~ <3 <3 <3

12th July ~

12^TH JULY

It’s been awhile I haven’t update my blog. It’s just that, I wanna stop talking about myself. Just for once! Psychologically, someone who likes to talk about themselves are proud of their life, achievement so on. Whereas someone who talks about memories will always stuck in their past.  

If I were to talk about myself, I would rather reflect it in song. If I were to talk about the memories, I’d rather feel it in the music I play.. someone like me is the one who always keep to myself, hide it behind my smiles & cover it with my confidence.

Sam… I have warned you earlier, now you’ve fallen for me. Correction! We both in love. Love, is unexplanation feelings which could only be felt by the love victim. We just can’t resist to update each other everyday.

 But one thing I’ve learned that, we are not necessary have deep feeling and always be moderate. Deep feelings will turn us to be more obsessed, to hope more, to dominate more, to get more insecure, to jealous more & eventually hurt more! Therefore, by giving moderately, receiving moderately…it can turn us to be more practical & stand on reality. I believe that every achievement in love or career or live is by learning from failure, not from success. I do believe that getting wrong person is one step ahead to the right one J Regardless what your view is, as you might not think that the wrong person is ‘wrong’ because they’re partly right or because they have good reason to leave/ back off. That view of yours I shall respect & sounds logic.

Sam.. I miss talking to you because you always give unexpected and reasonable answer to my silly & childish question. You are just like my missing brain. You’re left handed and I’m right-handed. You’re big and I’m small. You cook well and I bake well. I sing when you play base. I write when you read. I’m morning person when you’re evening person. I’m well-disciplined when you’re not! :p You’re master in science but I’m freak in art. You love coffee whereas I always prefer tea. When you’re talking, I prefer listening J You’re always be thief who steals my Cadburys & I’d be the police who punish you with my flying kiss! In short, can’t you see we complete each other’s life here? 

That’s why I never demand more… Coz it’s always be enough for me to have you who accept me for who I am… Who just simply declare me as your special girlfriend infront of your friends. It’s sense of appreciation to me… most importantly.. you’re as freak as me… :D:D:D I’m so glad to meet someone like you. 

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Types of personalities within our society

Anyway, that’s not what I’m gonna share here… more interesting than that, I guess =) as I told in whatsapp, I’m afraid u’ll get annoyed so I just drop it here. Last few weeks, I have read interesting book telling basically telling about human behavior or personality. It says that in this world, there are 4 types of people – popular sanguine, perfect melancholy, powerful choleric and peaceful phlegmatic.

The popular sanguine is the extrovert, talker and the optimist. This person always thinks that the world is very colorful and full of fairy tales stories which should always have happy ending. Talkative & storyteller. Have good sense of humor. Sincere and very lively. People will never get bored of him/her. in friendship, this type can make friends easily because of his/ her innocence and charmy personality. Always have abundance of acquaintances (fans) in his / her life. He/she can turn simple task to the main event and appreciate single thing in his / her life. FORGETFUL AND REMEMBER SOMETHING THROUGH COLOURS. Get distracted easily.

Perfect melancholy is the introvert, thinker and the pessimist (opposite of popular sanguine). He/ she is well planed and organized. VERY Deep, thoughtful and analytical. Most of talented and genius-intellect are perfect melancholies. His / her perfectionist personality has set high standard to achieve something as for them, speed is not a matter, but quality does. ORGANIZE HIS / HER LIFE THROUGH charts, graphs and figures and detail conscious. Due to this personality, they are tend to find perfect mate, select friends cautiously, rather have few faithful and devoted friends than having bunch of fans. Deep focus.

Time out ! (COMMERCIAL BREAK :p )

Popular sanguine and perfect melancholy could be perfect match as they have one major trait in common. They are both emotional and circumstantial.

Typical popular sanguine may have six emotional crises before noon. Everything is either great or terrible – no middle ground. ON THE OTHER HAND, THE PERFECT MELANCHOLIES ARE ALSO EMOTIONAL EXCEPT THEIR HIGHS ARE HIGHER AND THEIR LOWS ARE LOWER AND THE WHOLE PATTERN IS PROLONGED. POPULAR SANGUINE IS UP AND DOWN BY THE MINUTE AND PERFECT MELANCHOLY IS UP AND DOWN BY THE MONTH. WHEN THE POPULAR SANGUINE IS THE TALKER, THE PERFECT MELANCHOLY ENJOYS BEING THE LISTENER.

POWERFUL CHOLERIC IS THE EXTROVERT, DOER AND THE OPTIMIST. HE/ SHE COULD SEEK PRACTICAL SOLUTIONS BORN TO BE DYNAMIC AND ACTIVE LEADER. STRONG WILLED AND DECISIVE PERSON. THIS PERSON IS USUALLY RIGHT. HE/SHE STIMULATES ACTIVITY AND DELEGATES WORK.HE/SHE WILL WORK FOR GROUP ACTIVITY BUT HAS LITTLE NEED FOR FRIENDS. THIS PERSON IS GOAL ORIENTED AND CAN RUN ANYTHING. EXCELS IN EMERGENCIES. UNEMOTIONAL AND NOT EASILY DISCOURAGED.

PEACEFUL PHLEGMATIC IS THE INTROVERT, WATCHER AND THE PESSIMIST. THIS TYPE IS ALWAYS CALM, COOL AND COLLECTED. EASYGOING AND RELAXED. SHE/ HE IS ALL-PURPOSE PERSON AND QUIET BUT WITTY. HE/SHE MEDIATES PROBLEMS AND AVOIDS CONFLICTS. HE/SHE HAS MANY FIRNEDS AS HE/ SHE IS EASY TO GET ALONG WITH. MOST OF THE TIME, HE / SHE ENJOYS WATCHING PEOPLE AND ALWAYS FIND THE EASIEST WAY TO SOLVE PROBLEM. HE/SHE HAS DRY SENSE OF HUMOR AND KEEPS EMOTION HIDDEN. VERY CONSISTENT. WELL-BALANCED LIFE.

TIME OUT !!

WHEN THE POWERFUL CHOLERIC IS BORN TO BE LEADER, THE PEACEFUL PHLEGMATIC ENJOYS BEING FOLLOWER. WHEN THE POWERFUL CHOLERIC MAKES DRASTIC CHANGE, PEACEFUL PHLEGMATIC ALWAYS GO FOR STEADY CHANGES DUE TO HIS / HER CONSISTENT LIFE. 

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16th June 2013

Received morning text from mom by 7 a.m., they are departing to Singapore from Miri border. Good for them, hope they enjoy their group trip. It supposed to be my sis’s wedding day but God has prepared better plan, unforgettable family trip for them J

I am watching Outsourced series anyway, about Todd - Western Manager who was given task to manage the branch in India. He had to adapt to India culture, and this episode is about he had crush to his co-worker Asha.

As tradition, Indian girl has to agree with the arranged marriage. So, she had screen some biodata for selecting her husband. Todd finding way so he could be selected tho the chance is very slim. So, he get his male colleague to create his new profile, as Pradeep without changing his outstanding background and excellent education. He persuaded Asha t select ‘Pradeep’ after he saw her throwing the biodata into trash as sign of rejection.

For some who know about his feeling tried hard to make it possible. Even tho Todd managed to confess when he came for a bollywood movie with Asha, unfortunately Asha has chosen someone else, leaving Todd with his broken heart. 

13th May, double lazy monday

Aquarina: Far Away- Nickelback Lyrics: ~ Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore... ~ So far away, far away for far too long..

13^th May

Lazy Monday comes again! I’m late to work for… many times. Hopefully today’s going well. God will bless me & my family, and all the lucks are coming through my life today :D ahh it’s good to tell myself with some positive words in the morning. I believe the positive vibes can smooth our journey..

On the way walking down the street to my office building, I was thinking about the last thing I shared with sam. About a friend of mine who always use me for his own benefit (it’s not friend for benefit English series, anyway but it’s for real). We used to go out for lunch or dinner before (of course in a group) as I never agree to go out just with him, as if going out for a date.. he’s around 30s and divorcee. So i don’t wanna give a chance for the public to think that I’m one of his girlfriend! I came to realized that He always calls me up whenever he has no friend or girlfriend around but I’m not desperate enough to go out with him, anyway. His life quite miserable, but he shouldn’t take this chance to flirt with other girls when his divorce issue is not settled yet. If I were in his position, just fix the stuff and after all he has 2 year old son to take care of.

I’m thinking, if I were in that stage where I have small child, will I be a good mother? I could imitate what my mother did to raise me up (at some points) but I would probably give choices for my kids as well. I remember when I told my grandma and mother about my first dream job to be policewoman, they simply disagreed and give a ‘no’ answer. Whyyyy? They just said that as a girl, I should get feminine job.. what? But when I asked what sort of feminine works they referring to.. is it nurse? Air hostess? Or… that’s all in my mind. Then mom replied, ‘nurse? No.. you will be away from me and stay in hostel. I won’t let it happen? Air hostess? No.. you will expose to social issue, all the bad people are there…’ I was like… %^&Y$##^%^&&* turned so grumpy and left the topic until i grew up.

Last few nights, I had random topic with sam., about inherited genes… lol, he is so lucky to have nice hair color which inherited from his grandma, I don’t know how to explain.. so I told him that she will look soo adorable if his future daughter inherited it. Yet, he told me it’s depend on the genetic. And he wished to have max of 2 kids, pair of girl and boy… but I never share how many kids would I have to have, haha………. Secret :P

 the modern technology are so great which we can select which gender we want for the unborn baby… I’m afraid that my future daughter would imitate me a lot! :s my partner will have double headache as he might see a ‘copy and paste’ / so-called my cloner messing the house.. haha.. good to imagine stuff, but training baby boy is quite fun, too though. I don’t know.. it’s 2 stages to go… get the right partner, get married and get baby. (wait..it’s 3 stages! Lol) in short, get the quality partner to have quality baby with quality brain.. hahaha sounds so perfect.. hmmm how can I find that…***searching***

12th May, Mother's day

12^TH MAY

WOKE UP AROUND 7:30 AM IN THE MORNING AS MY FIRST ACTIVITY WAS TO HAVE BREAKFAST WITH MY MOM. YAWN!  I JUST SLEPT FOR 5 HOURS. I DIDN’T HAVE SO MUCH ACTIVITY TODAY. LONG DRIVE TO FLAT, RIMBA AREA WHERE I STAY IN THE CITY BY 1130 AM AND REACHED BY 130 PM. MY LIL SIS IS AROUND AS SHE IS COMING BACK HOME FOR 3 MONTHS SEMESTER BREAK, SO I THINK MOM IS NOT SO LONELY.

I HAD NICE LUNCH WITH MY COUSIN SIS, WHO IS MY ROOMmATE IN FLAT AS WELL AND WE SHARED SOME STORIES TOO. WE ARE VERY CLOSE, AND CLOSER THAN MY SIBLINGS EVEN THOUGH WE ARE 2 YEARS GAP BUT WE GET ALONG SO WELL SINCE ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. I WAS HER SENIOR AND SHE’S MY JUNIOR AND ALWAYS ACTED AS ELDER SIS TO PROTECT HER IN SCHOOL WHEN SHE WAS DISTURBED BY THE NAUGHTY GUYS.

WE REACHED HOME BY 3PM AFTER WE DROPPED BY SUPERMARKET TO TOP UP SOME HOME STOCK. WE HAD GREAT TIME TOGETHER BY WATCHING MALAY MOVIE AND KOREAN SERIES UNTIL EVENING. NOW IM JUST LISTENING TO SONGS AND UPDATE MY JOURNAL… THINKING TO CONTINUE MY WRITING ABOUT THE NEW STORY BUT I LOST MY INSPIRATION… ALL THIS WHILE, SINCERELY HE HAD INSPIRED ME TO WRITE… I TOLD HIM THAT I MIGHT USE SOME OF HIS CHARACTER OR BEHAVIOR OR SIMPLY OUR MEMORIES IN MY STORY LINE AND HE TOTALLY DIDN’T MIND IT. AND WHOEVER GUY WHO COULD INSPIRE ME TO CONTINUE MY HALF WAY WRITING WOULD BE MORE THAN SPECIAL TO ME…

BEING A WRITER IS ONE OF MY DREAM JOB, I HAVE SOME ADDRESSES OF PUBLISHERS IN MALAYSIA, AND I COULD TRY TO SEND MY MANUSCRIPT TO THEM FOR REVIEW… THE POINT IS, I HAVEN’T FINISHED THE MANUSCRIPT YET. THE STORY NEEDS ME TO MASTER MY KNOWLEDGE IN AMNESIA SICKNESS, THE PROCEDURES TO DETECT / CURE IT, AND HAVE TO KNOW SOME MEDICAL TERMS TOO… HMM JUST HAVE TO FIND MY GOOGLE GUY AND HAVE DEEP SCIENCE KNOWLEDGE ON THIS TOO.

PLAN TO WRITE TWISTED ENDING STORY BUT IT WON’T BE SURPRISED ANYMORE IF I EXPOSE IT HERE… SOME SURFERS STARTED TO SEND ME MESSAGE EVER SINCE I JOINED COUCHSURFING NET FEW DAYS AGO. I AM SO GLAD TO BE TOUR GUIDE FOR TRAVELERS WHO WILLING TO COME OVER TO MY COUNTRY PROVIDED THE VACATION DAY IS MY OFF DAYS AND I DO NOT HAVE CLASSES. BUT I CAN’T OFFeR COUCH AT THIS MOMENT AS I DON’T EXPECT TO STAY WITH THE STRANGER (EXCEPT IF I HAVE ANOTHER RENTAL HOUSE AND I STAY SEPARATELY IN UNCLE’S HOUSE). IT’S BECAUSE I DON’T FEEL SO COMFORTABLE TO SHOW MY CHARACTER OR HOW SEXY I COULD BE AT HOME TO STRANGER COZ I’M SURE I COULD BE HIS ‘DINNER’ ANYTIME IF WE STAY TOGETHER.. LOL. 

Everytime-Simple Plan Lyrics

How I wish I could go back.. just for one more day with you :) :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKpWPcOpzFw

11th May, silent saturday

11^th may..

Hey ya.. so lazy to wake up early but I had office works to do today. Oh ya, sam told me he got a job last night.. shall ask him more. How I wish I could join him to pangkor island today… don’t tell me more about your exciting journey okay because I will turn jealous L you told me last night that you read my blog :o now you can read my mind :P u are their 'harry potter' but you are my 'ironman' ..haha :D

The reason I wrote about amnesia (not actually written by me coz I get all the info from some nice website) was, my crush had amnesia before.. more to concussion which gave him memory loss for quite some times when he had serious head injury due to car accident. So, I planned to write nice story related to that that’s why I posted on my blog so I never lost the info.. 

Spent my afternoon by fetching my sweet lil cousin from nursery today and she couldn’t stop talking to me at home.. mom called today and asking if I go home today in my hometown. I haven’t decided yet, but planned to since she asked me so it means she needs my companion. It’s 520pm now and I’m still in office w/o getting OT.

Have long drive later to hometown which takes 1.5 hr journey… 

6th May, lazy Monday ~

6^th May

I woke up by 3 a.m today & get my butt off the bed and took fresh shower to wipe away my last night tears. God! Can’t hide my panda eyes..

Read Sam’s morning text to wake me up as soon as I get back into my dorm. even though we’re just next door neighbor . You’re kind enough.. Aziman bro, the taxi driver has been waiting outside of the hotel since 4:00 am. I am so lucky enough to meet him as my taxi driver as he looks so kind hearted. Sam helped to carry my luggage and passed it to Aziman bro.

Goodbye Ryokan, goodbye Sam and goodbye my roommates. I hope to come over again, and  discover some parts in Penang. Thanks a lot for providing the best hospitality in my life (so far).

Aziman bro, he brought me to roam some parts of Georgetown in the dawn which I didn’t discover with the two cupids last night. He insisted to have morning breakfast in Nasi Kandar Pelita, one of the best restaurant in the town.. I am still upset about last night but just tried my best to balance my emotion infront of the stranger. Surprisingly, he treats me the breakfast which I should be the one who paid. So kind enough and I can’t forget it forever.

Finally we reached Penang airport by 5 am. I mistaken my boarding time as my arrival time in KL by one hour late, fuhh.. luckily he sent me early so I could catch my boarding time to KL.

Reached KL by 8:15 am, and rushed to get taxi to send me over to Hotel Warisan where my two friends were staying. We explored little india in KL city and got back to hotel by 2:30 pm. I got my nap sleep for 2 hours then we rushed to KLCC to visit Aquaria. Heh.. the taxi driver named by Syam seemed like interested on me. But, yeah… I don’t give a damn. LOL. We returned to hotel by 9 pm as we have to rush to airport by 5 am in the next morning.

What a day……………. 

8th May, Rushing Wednesday ~

8^th May

7:00 a.m? Gosh!! I was late to work.. It’s my first day after my vacation trip. Actually, I am half hearted go to work today, feel like wanna continue another day on my bed.. Partly because I get trauma for getting blame again by my boss’s wife. It’s just ruin my whole day if it gonna happen today.

Lalala.. I drove happily to work and reached by 8:45a.m which is late by one hour and 15 minutes. Haha.. good thing about this boss, he won’t complain much, as long as I get my work done and another reason might be because I’m his only assistant so, if I say NO then no one else will do the works. Lol.. Another reason could be…. My charmy look. Haha! C’mon, who gonna scold innocence sweet looking girl just like me? Ah Just kidding..

Sam! You are such a great friend, but yeah as I told you… never try to understand me okay, otherwise you will either get crazy or fall in love with me, just like other typical guys who fall even on first met. I hate that! Why they easily offering serious relationship even on first meet? I don’t easily open my heart, that’s why I could stand to love that one person since the last 3 years.. Even though it’s not worthed L

Far Away- Nickelback Lyrics

~ Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore...
~ So far away, far away for far too long..

What a miracle Friday ~

10^th May

What a miracle Friday~ I mean, the miracle doesn’t work today and I don’t wanna know why. As long as I know that I’m quite tired today, probably because I have used up my energy to teach in 2 hours ++ class last night. I do not have so much work to do today and plan to sneak out early and go straight to my aunt’s home in the city. I’d rather spend time with my lil sweet innocent cousin and I heard both of my sisters will stay overnight there, too.

Great! It’s been awhile that 3 of us didn’t spend time together. I heard from mom that my lil sis loves the pashmina shawl I bought for her. Ahh.. these people will never dare to tell me directly even though I’m not ghost anyway. Even how hard I try to get closer to them, they (my siblings) will always keep a gap. Maybe I’m really a SWAN who stuck in DUCK’s family L It’s okay, as I’m used to it ever since I was kid J

9th May, Hectic Thursday

My eyes glanced again to the casio watch on my wrist given by someone early this year. Hmm how’s he doing? I know another primary reason he returnd to his hometown is because he just wanna keep a gap, or in other word to disconnect his life from me. I think he got suffocated. I always treated him as if he’s young kid who I couldn’t rely on and I always insisted to do everything by myself and he simple get fed up. Ahhh.. whatever nonsense and assumption in my mind, he would never be brave enough to explain anything to me but just left me with ‘goodbye’ message!

Damn… couldn’t sleep -.- it’s not that I’m missing him but we used to update each other, every hour, everyday.. and now… I must be strong enough As independent girl, I can survive without anyone. Yeahh! Sounds sooo EGO but that’s only way to motivate my broken pieces of heart.

Sam! We chat again, yeahh .. we can’t stop updating each oher now. Seems like we can connect well ever since we spent time together in Penang J If you read this, I just wanna thank you soo much for being my savior that time, otherwise I will be dying of boredom! 

5th May, Sweet but disappointed ending in Penang

5^TH MAY 2013

Oh my.. It’s half past nine a.m. I might be late for breakfast today! I confidently walk down the stair to see what’s for today’s breakfast. Honestly, I do not have any idea if my stay was included breakfast until I read the dorm room’s regulation which they stick on the wall last night.

The bar side of the lobby always attracts me to sit on it. The menu for today: sausage, plain bread, assorted flavor of butter, peanut and so on, coffee and bananas. It’s simple but I love it. I keep on thinking what should I do today to kill my boredom…a half-awaken with grey pajama western looking guy came over to prepare his toasted bread passing through me while I was busy thinking. Hmm shall I contact his father (my crush), which is not in town now but care my safety so much. Or shall I contact him who should be checking in the kk, sabah airport by now for his boarding time to penang. Urghh.. I need outdoor activities…

My eyes glanced on The pajama guy sat next to me at the bar, but I couldn’t assume anything about him.. all of sudden my Polaroid films which taken yesterday were slipped out of my unzipped bag and dropped on the floor as I carelessly put my bag on the bar chair. Damn… it’s over 15 pieces, what would this pajama guy say to see my clumsy behavior… I just collected it innocently and control my panic mode (>.<)

Well, I should have some courage to ask the unknown name of pajama guy just to break the ice.. it could be either fun or boring conversation, must take my only chance ‘ are you travelling alone?’ lol, amongst all the easiest question in the world, that’s the only question that popped out in my mind now. He turned his head and facing me and say ‘yess!’

what…? Yesss?? Sometimes I can’t control my excitement in public.. :D He’s solo traveler? I thought he might bring a partner with him, too.. ‘seriously, are you going on solo trip?’ probably I never heard of someone go for solo trip who stranded here except me, so I get excited if someone just like me!

‘Yesss…’ that unnamed guy repeated again and gave me sincere smile. He probably think that for many times he has to make myself clear. Then I started to ask more…more qs abt how, when and why wich needs him to give me more than ‘yes and no’ answer. haha and he seems to welcome my question & enjoyed listening to my part of story. I told him the main reason I came over penang and I found out that he has been staying in penang for two weeks. Wow… amazing, he seems like awaiting for someone here or just couldn’t leave penang. So as me, but I have to go back to work after 3 days.

We seemed to have good connection and spark coz we laughed a lot and enjoyed the sweetest breakfast. Only then I knew he is British guy who came to asia since 6 months ago, his intention to do some volunteer works in Thailand, have fixed and interesting goals in life and very humble even though he is holding bachelor of science. He is someone who loves biology subject more than anything. Finally, after one hour ice breaking conversation, we came up with the ‘plan the unplanned’ activity which is to the mall (upon my request anyway) haha.. and he seems like volunteering himself to be my host, not by force :p let me rewind 15 minutes before we made the decision to the mall..

I have running out of Polaroid films, so I asked if he knew any place selling the films as he has been there for 2 weeks. So, he said maybe we could find in the mall, centre of the town. Hmm I am not familiar with the place so would appreciate if he could lead the way since he wanna buy bus ticket to ipoh as well. Ahhh… so glad he agreed with my request coz I can’t accept any rejection for now. Sam, if you read this I would like to thank you again! Haha..

So, we walking down the streets and reaching the mall by 1145am, but why I feel hungry again. I used to munch snacks in small portion every 3-4 hours every day so I won’t feel hungry easily. Now, I kinda lose my energy by walking and talking as we really can’t stop talking. What a funny connection at the right time. Finally, we could find the right film shop which sells the Polaroid films and it really made me smiles all day long :D :D

We had delicious Hainan chicken rice in the street which packed with people and we hardly get the sitting place. We returned to the hotel by 1:30 pm, and sitting on the lobby. And I started to share some personal stories to him. And I get so excited and carried away with my stories until he told me…’ … but we haven’t know each other’s name’ very funny!! We have been talking for the whole morning and yet, we didn’t introduce ourselves and simply share about personal stuff? Only then I know his looonggg name.. and just call him sam! Haha, and just call me shukrina :P ohoo.. suddenly his father called me up (my crush) when I was in the middle of my sentence… just asking how am I doing, or just ensure my safety.. I’m so glad to have some caring people around me and I said I had companion and he sounds relieve… I wanna tell him that to inform his son that he doesn’t have to come over to fetch me as my companion is enough but I’m afraid it would insult his father so I keep the words. Can’t reject when this father which I called uncle invited me for a dinner tonight.. we have been communicate via facebook all this while and now I get nervous to meet him in person. Anyway, I just agreed as I must ‘pay back’ his concern during my stay in penang.

I thought I could get nap sleep around 5pm but my eyes couldn’t close even though my monkey bear keep hugging me to sleep. So I decided to just sit on the chilling corner and I found sam was there too. Again, we kept chit chatting until 7pm.

He & his bestfriend fetched me by 8 pm, and I thought it was gonna be fun.. it was drops of rain, but he kept telling me that all the shops are closed and I couldn’t go out of the car to snap some nice pictures in nice places. We had awkward and silence dinner, which never happened before… suddenly he asked me if I still keep the taxi driver number with me… I know the hidden meaning, which is he couldn’t send me to the airport next day… it totally ruined my mood. Why on hell he promised me at the beginning, kept insisting to send me even though I said no? as if he giving some hopes and now, it turned hopeless… and I turned quiet until reaching my hotel. I am afraid sam, who sat on the entrance would see my moody face and I just greeted him half-heartedly. He chased me to the door and asked if I have money…. What the heck! That’s not question or explanation I am hoping for. Then he said sorry and I just replied ‘it’s okay!’ and simply entered the door without turning back.

Sam texted me up again to find if I’m okay as my face turned soury and spicy.. I received his call & the guy I met on first day in penang at same time… I just wanna stay alone… I just hope that I could forward the time so I could just go to airport by now and boarding out of penang. I hate it! I always get disappointed ending… I cried for the whole night long and got panda eyes by early morning for getting just 2 hrs sleep.

What a reversal ending in penang, unexpected stories… 

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