Shall
I stop writing?
All
this while, his presence has inspired my writing a lot. I never feel so real
and attached to my writing until he came into my life. Now, he decided to go
and I don’t have right to stop him. But shall I stop writing? Or stay with my
imagination that he will still be around? Either way, can't give back the memories...
I
don’t have courage to meet him again even if it’s accidentally meeting. I’m weakening
by his shadow! The memories will keep haunting me till my last breath. I will hide myself under the shell until it's fully recovered. I pray
to God, to make me stronger than before, to stay optimist and to go on with my
life.
It
was my fault to stay closer; to let him discovered the untouched part in my
life and to give him option to leave.
‘…
Never mind, I’ll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you.
Don’t forget me, I bet I remember you said; sometimes it lasts in love but
sometimes it hurts instead. Nothing compared
no worries okay, regrets and mistakes their memories made. Who would have known
how bitter sweet this would taste…’
I
just hope that he will find someone fits him, who accept him for who he is and
the same rank so he doesn’t have to feel lack of confidence. Someone who
motivates him when he’s down, who can be his Google or help desk. Importantly,
who makes him feel perfect.
At
this point, I go with the flow of my life… Yet, the outside world is so damn
scary and slowly taken away my confidence to face it.
I’m
not desperately need replacement, and it’s better to stay this way. Hope he
will achieve his dream without any difficulty.
Date : 27.06.2012
Time : 11:50 am
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